Unitarian Universalist Fellowship of Corvallis, Oregon

“Listening to the Messages"

Sunday, March 29, 2009
by Rev. Sarah Schurr

 

God talked to me. It’s true.  God really talked to me.  It wasn’t like that burning bush Moses saw with the booming voice of God that you can read about in the Hebrew scriptures.  It also wasn’t like the groundskeeper that took the form of divine in the TV show, Joan of Arcadia.  It wasn’t even like the voice of George Burns talking to John Denver like it was in that 1970’s hit movie “Oh God”.  But I heard her, God talking to me – Sarah Schurr. 

Appropriately enough this happened at GA, the Unitarian Universalist General Assemble of Congregations.  I was in the bathroom when I heard this message from the divine.  I was waiting in line in the bathroom, as usual, between workshops.  The line was long but the mood was friendly and I watched and listened to the people around me.  There were two older ladies at the sink, washing their hands.  One older lady was using some paper towels to wipe off the counter. Not just in the sink she had used, but the area about three feet to each side of her.  Another older lady smiled at her and said, “You must have been a Girl Scout” and the first lady smiled back and replied, “Yes, you know what we used to say, ‘leave it better than you found it’”.   Boom.  It happened. When she said that last phrase, I felt the words resonate in my head and my soul.  “Leave it better than you found it”.  I had heard those words before, but today they sounded different to me.  They truly felt like a message to me from the something greater than myself in the universe.  I smiled and thought to myself, “That is it!  That is what my life is about.  That is why I am in this world…to leave it better than I found it”.  I felt, as they say in some churches, filled with the Spirit. I was given my life’s mission in the GA bathroom.  In that bathroom line that day, I expect there were about 20 women. Some other people might have also listened in on that conversation about cleaning up the counter.  Some might have even thought it was sweet.  I doubt if any others felt that they were getting a message from the divine about the purpose of their existence.

Sounds crazy?  Maybe.  But I know I am not the only one to have this kind of experience, when suddenly you hear or notice something that truly resonates with you.  That speaks to you in some important way, telling you something you need to hear that day.  I remember a day during my seminary training when I was riding in the car along I-5 with another UU ministerial candidate.  We were talking about how sometimes we felt overwhelmed and pulled in so many directions.  Tending to class work, church volunteering, family needs, time to ourselves…Then we saw it.  One of those big flashing programmable signs on the freeway, meant to signal drivers of upcoming accidents or delays.  Suddenly flashing above it was the message, “Balance your load”.  We just about went off the road we laughed so hard.  We were both struck with how that had been just what we needed to hear at that moment.  We both felt it was one of those messages from the universe that there for us to listen to.  I am sure that sign was programmed by the highway department with log trucks in mind, not middle aged student ministers, but hey…God works in mysterious ways.

You might be thinking, “Did I stumble into the wrong church this morning?  That minister is using the word God here in the kind of way that some Unitarian Universalists find strange to say the least.”   Am I really talking about some old man sitting up in the clouds sending down custom made miracles, like in the movies?  No, I don’t think so.  Yet, I do believe that sometimes things in this universe seem very convenient in how they work out and I have to wonder if things in this life are always as random as we might think.  There are wise people in this world who say there is no such thing as a coincidence.  I’ll let you chew on that idea for yourself, and draw your own conclusion.   

I may not believe that old man sitting on a cloud, sending down that custom made miracle I am looking for, but I really do think there is such a thing being open to wisdom.   The wisdom of the universal order, as it were.  I think wisdom is all around us, if we are open and able to pay attention to it. This kind of thinking was very popular with our Transcendentalist ancestors in the Unitarian Church of the 1800’s.  Ralph Waldo Emerson put it well when he said, 

            There is a deep power in which we exist and whose beatitude is accessible to us.  Every moment when the individual feels invaded by it is memorable.  It comes to the lowly and simple; it comes to whosoever will put off what is foreign and proud; it comes as insight; it comes as serenity and grandeur.  The soul’s health consists in the fullness of its reception.

            I expect many of you have had that experience…when you experienced an “ah ha” of insight or wisdom.  When things suddenly became more clear to you than every before. When you experienced an influx of understanding.    Maybe you were enjoying some time in nature and you suddenly had a deep understanding of how you are connected with the earth and other living things.  Maybe you saw your father’s smile on your grandchild’s face and knew deep down that those who have died are never really gone.  Maybe you found yourself getting furious and obsessive over some meaningless and petty thing at work and suddenly realized that you really needed to gain perspective on your life and your priorities.

            The trick with these bursts of wisdom, these spiritual software upgrades, is that we cannot custom order them when they are needed.  We can go through dry patches of weeks, month, and years when we could really use wisdom and insight and yet it seems to be in short supply.  I will admit that this happened to me not so long ago.  You see, when I was in divinity school I was thinking big thoughts all the time and reading the texts of the world’s religions.  It was exciting.  Not only that, but I was pretty much forced to have a spiritual practice. OK, not forced, but it was hard to avoid.  Every class began with a ritual or prayer or mediation.  We all had to take turns leading these activities and in that I had a really diverse program, I was exposed to everything from Sufi dancing to being anointed with holy oil.   Finding ways to be in touch with the spirit was a regular part of my life.  I found that amazing wisdom and insights were pretty available to me back then, like finding sand dollars on the beach after a storm.  They were there for me to pick up.  Then I had my year of internship here at UUFC.  I was immersed in a religious existence as I took my place on your staff team, helping to lead all of you on a spiritual path to the best of my ability.  I prayed and meditated on a regular basis as part of my job.  I looked at everything from a spiritual perspective.  I felt really connected to my higher power.  Wisdom was coming at me fast and furious.  It seemed like I was in a dialog with the universe.  Then I graduated from my internship and was ordained.  By the way, I need to take this time to thank you again for that ordination.  It was one of the finest days of my life.  I will never forget it.   

Anyway, after I became a real minister I no longer had a system in place to see that my spiritual life was tended.  I was a real minister now and it was up to me to do. OK, fair enough. I did fine for a while.  I knew what to do and really liked my spiritual activities.  But I didn’t get a church job fresh out of school.  I found myself busy with other aspects of my life.  I needed to earn money to help with household expenses so I got a job in my previous profession of Social Work.   It is good work and I still get to help people. But I found that when I no longer spent regular time as a religious professional, it was easy to let my spiritual life slip.  It became like eating right and exercising.  It was something I knew was good for me, but I was often distracted by what I thought were more immediate concerns, like getting out the door on time on Monday morning and keeping the dishes caught up.  Connecting with God became uncommon rather than routine. 

This shift was not without consequences, I am afraid.  You see, when I stopped paying attention to the spirit, I stopped paying attention to the messages from the spirit.  Where inspirations and wisdom was flooding into me before, soon it seemed pretty much unavailable. The well was dry.  It was as if I had lost my internet connection and I was unable to log in to receive those wisdom messages. It didn’t feel good.  I was worried if I had lost something that I would never get back. 

So what does a person do when they need spiritual guidance, I went to a minister.  I sat down with a friendly colleague and asked about this.  She said that this was not necessarily a permanent problem.  She suggested that if I gave God a little attention every day, that I would probably get some attention back.   Yes, we UU ministers talk that way sometimes.  So I tried it and, low and behold… it worked. Sometimes I would light a chalice and do some readings for myself.  Sometimes I would meditate.  I began silently praying for the people served by the agency where I work, in addition to providing them with good social work services. I replaced my bedside book. I exchanged a paperback mystery novel with a book of Buddhist meditations.  It helped a lot.  I found that flow of wisdom and messages from the universe began to be available again.  

Now I don’t think that the messages stopped existing.  I think I stopped seeing and hearing them.  I think I was so busy with the mundane tasks of dishes and watching TV news broadcasts that I was not listening to the messages.  I expect they were still there.  I just wasn’t hearing them.  I was not tuned into the spirit.  I was not paying attention on that level.  It reminds me of a story in the introduction of a book of spiritual essays called Breakfast Epiphanies by David Anderson.  He tells of someone at a party recounting what a bad day they had.  This party guest had been stuck on the interstate, standing along the side of the freeway with a sick car, waiting for a tow truck.  Another party guests said, “Was that you with the blue sedan? I saw that car standing there along the highway and someone standing there next to it.  If I’d know it was you I would have stopped”.  Anderson goes on to say that that pretty much sums of his search for God, “If I’d have know it was you I would have stopped”.  David Anderson is a minister who also says that sometimes he gets wrapped up with picking up the dry-cleaning and getting to the church board meeting on time and can find that this results in him wearing a kind of blinders.  He is so focused on mundane things in front of him, that he doesn’t recognize the divine right next to him.  

Well Ralph Waldo Emerson told us about this, in that passage I read before.  He said this divine wisdom and insight can come to all of us. Says even the lowly and simple can attain this kind of insight.  But it comes to those who will put off the foreign and the proud.  I think this means it comes to those who are willing to take some time to step out of the usual routine.  Those who are open to messages from unusual and unexpected places.  Those who can allow time and space to get to know their true self in the real world.  Maybe that is why Emerson’s disciple, Henry David Thoreau went out to live at Walden Pond.  He left his usual rat race and spent some concentrated time in nature, chatting with his neighbors, paying attention to the birds and the plants along the water.  He wrote and left himself open to insights.  Thoreau said, Let us first be as simple and well as Nature ourselves, dispel the clouds which hang over our brows,
and take up a little life into our pores.
Those insights Thoreau gathered along the banks of Walden Pond  have become a liberal religious travel log and guide for the spiritual seekers for generations since as he shared wisdom like this “To be a philosopher is not merely to have subtle thoughts, nor even to found a school, but so to love wisdom as to live according to its dictates, a life of simplicity, independence, magnanimity, and trust” , and  “I learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.”  Thoueau may not have been spending every day in a seminary class or in Buddhist meditation, but he was maintaining an active spiritual life.  He was taking time to shed the trappings of life to be open to deeper mysteries.  He was available to listen to the voice of God and gather the wisdom the universe had available.

Emerson tells us that, not only is this wisdom available to all of us, it is vital to the health of the soul.  What on earth, you might say, is the health of the soul.  Well, I take it to mean living a full and meaningful life.  The body, the mind, and the spirit all being tended and cared for.  Maybe Emerson is warning us that if we are not tending our healthy soul, that we will miss out on wisdom and insight – thus leading a less meaningful existence in our journey thought life.

The ancient Hebrews knew this was important.  One of the 10 Commandments, the laws the people of Moses continue to find as a source of authority, is “remember the Sabbath day and keep it holy.”  They had this as a priority that as you struggle though your existence, finding food and tending your flocks, you must take one day a week to stop the usual work of survival and think about the important things.  To be with family, to gather in community for meals, to think about God, to pray.  Even when wandering in the desert for 40 years, this kind of thing was seen as vital to the survival of the individual and the tribe.

I am sure there a bunch of nice ponds around Corvallis.  But I don’t think you need to quit your day job and move next to one like Thoreau did.  Nor am I suggesting you have to go to divinity school like I did.  You may not be able to go to a Sabbatical to the other end of the globe, like your minister the Rev. Gretchen Woods.  But I am giving you a piece of advice.  I am recommending you maintain some kind of spiritual practice.  If you don’t have one, start one. Do a UU kind of Sabbath keeping.  I recommend you have something you do, on a regular basis, that is not about being in a hurry to get somewhere or filling out paperwork or cleaning up after a domestic mess.  I recommend you have some kind of regular activity that gives you time and space to open up the not-so-material in your life.  A spiritual practice.  I know there is a lot of wisdom about spiritual practice in this congregation.  There are worship services, evening events, classes.   Your called minister and your lay ministers are keenly aware of spiritual practice and the importance it can have and can help you out.  Some people meditate, some garden, some journal, some read religious books like UU meditation manuals. 

I believe that when we maintain that spiritual side of our existence, when we tend our soul, that we are able to take off the blinders that David Anderson talked about and recognize the divine in our lives, or at least the wisdom of the universe, when it has a message for us.  We can be open to wisdom that abounds in this world for those who have eyes to see and ears to hear.

 I sometimes think that it is not a coincidence that I heard the voice of God in the bathroom line at GA.  I had never heard the voice of God in the bathroom line at the movies or at the shopping mall.  I have spent way more time in those lines.  But while I was at GA that year, I was participating in worship several times a day.  I was singing UU hymns.  I was surrounded by people of faith. Spending some time in a spiritual frame of mind may have helped me to hear the voice of God when I needed to hear her.  Spending some time looking at life through a spiritual lens may have allowed me to see what I would otherwise have been blind to.

Many of you know that the first of our UU principles is that we respect the inherent worth and dignity of every person.  You may not be so familiar with our Unitarian Universalist six sources.  These sources are where we claim to get our religious wisdom and authority.  The first of our sources reads, “Direct experience of that transcending mystery and wonder affirmed in all cultures, which moves us to a renewal of the spirit and an openness to the forces that create and uphold life.”  See folks, I didn’t make this up.  We  as UUs covenant to regard those direct human experiences to that which creates and upholds life.  When we tend our spiritual life and are open to new insights, we can experience these direct experiences of the transcending mystery affirmed in all cultures.   This is to live a life of fullness, wisdom, and joy.    May it be so.